When i joined this company, turning 24 years old, I told myself that I will retire from this company.. =__= .. fresh grad.young girl. not much of anticipation ok.. I enjoy myself then. Very much. Very much till to the extend I spend longer hour in the office than with BFPanda. I hate weekend. I got headache during weekend. And, it would just went off when I returned to work on Monday. wth.

I travelled all over Peninsular Malaysia and East Malaysia, gave training to the branches colleagues, and was like the top of the world. It was 2004 and 2005. And, I was like.. FREEDOM.. , enjoying my life, the confident, the courages, the self esteem, were all over me. I like to meet new people. I like to do things I like to do. I like to see places which were so different to me. I don’t care what others think. I feel good.

But, of course a lot of downside happened during 2005, sickness and loss of friend where it struck me without any precaution. But, I rather not talk about it.

Fast forward to today. Albeit, I am a little demotivated at times, I still managed to convince myself that this is a company for me. Who don’t wish for comfort, seniority, freedom, familiarisation, comfortable money end of the month, nice collleagues and superior? It’s all the my pocket now. Maybe, i struggled due to high expectation of myself. Agigated, disappointed, when things didnt go the right way. Perfection!! How I hate it.

At times, I do prayed to ask God to give me a way. Resign or Stay Put. And many times, He would answered- STAY PUT. That’s why I am still here today.

Happy 6th Anniversary CLUMSYPANDA

cry.. How can I iron my own hand?!!

So CLUMSY =_=

Yesterday when I was alone at home, with TOTALLY nothing to do.. err.. yes lar.. I did bake carrot cake yesterday..

Oh yah.. Talking about carrot cake, it was the first time I bake it. Quite nice lar.. accept not enough carrot.. wth..

Ok.. come back to me being romantic.. Being bored, too early to sleep, I decided to do something to SURPRISE Hubby Panda.. So that when he come back, he will be happy and surprise and know that I love him.. =_____=”

So, out came the coloured paper, scissor, and tape, I started to cut all the universal love Alphabethical-  I LOVE YOU and stick it childishly on the wall above my bed.

I am so romantic one..

I went to sleep after that.

And when Hubby Panda came back around 11 p.m. his expression was like

“oooo.. I love you so much”

OK.. I LIED =____=

YES.. I LIED

His real expression was smile at me, thinking that the whole idea was me, decorating my room, so that I can feel happier when I reach home from work everyday. sweat. cold sweat. HubbyPanda, if I want to decorate my room, I will paint the whole room HOT PINK.. Just that you don’t allow.

And he added-

“Will the tape make the paint drop or not?”

sweat.. real sweat.

i continue to sleep..

Maybe I will just paint the room pink when HubbyPanda not at home next time.. ngek.. ngek.. ngek..

Cause my calculation is 1+1 = 3. That’s why I am not qualify to play card. wth..

Setting up a branch is so easy..

What you need is a big box.. and stick the yellow Big  M (not big bird k) there..

and the menu

and tadah.. McDonald outlet was ready..

and, the lady boss had been playing with the “outlet” as if it was a real business. Morning, afternoon, night= and she still keep playing with it.

And, I had too much McDonald meal nowadays.. =__________=”

Hate my new hair.. so short, make my face so round like mandarin orange..

OK.. for those who have start working,    gu lak gu lak zho kang (work hard)

for those who havent start work, envy you

for those who had gain weight, fai di (faster) do something to get rid of the fat

for those who don’t gain weight at all, envy you

4th day of Chinese New Year ….

Continue to enjoy k..