Not been updating as frequent as I did last time. Guess my life seems to be a bit boring nowadays.. and I am slowly turning myself into Auntie Category. Today is my 6 (cow)”niu” years in my company. Time flies. I use to go like “awwww” when I heard colleague working in the same company like more than 5 years, thinking why they spend their life in the same company. Aren’t they bored? Don’t they wish to go and see the outside world. But, I never imagine myself being in the same category- 6 years. and still counting.
When i joined this company, turning 24 years old, I told myself that I will retire from this company.. =__= .. fresh grad.young girl. not much of anticipation ok.. I enjoy myself then. Very much. Very much till to the extend I spend longer hour in the office than with BFPanda. I hate weekend. I got headache during weekend. And, it would just went off when I returned to work on Monday. wth.
I travelled all over Peninsular Malaysia and East Malaysia, gave training to the branches colleagues, and was like the top of the world. It was 2004 and 2005. And, I was like.. FREEDOM.. , enjoying my life, the confident, the courages, the self esteem, were all over me. I like to meet new people. I like to do things I like to do. I like to see places which were so different to me. I don’t care what others think. I feel good.
But, of course a lot of downside happened during 2005, sickness and loss of friend where it struck me without any precaution. But, I rather not talk about it.
Fast forward to today. Albeit, I am a little demotivated at times, I still managed to convince myself that this is a company for me. Who don’t wish for comfort, seniority, freedom, familiarisation, comfortable money end of the month, nice collleagues and superior? It’s all the my pocket now. Maybe, i struggled due to high expectation of myself. Agigated, disappointed, when things didnt go the right way. Perfection!! How I hate it.
At times, I do prayed to ask God to give me a way. Resign or Stay Put. And many times, He would answered- STAY PUT. That’s why I am still here today.