The day I moved to KL from Sitiawan with only a small, blue travelling bag. That was 1st January 2000. Everything was prepared. My brother found me a place to stay (although I moved out one day later for some reason) and got me my first Alcatel Handphone. My then boyfriend, now aka Hubby Panda registered me at Stamford College and took me out for meal every day. And walked me home with a Dutch Lady Chocolate Milk every night when I shifted near to his place.
Unlike those outstation college freshies who tried hard to adapt to KL life, I am glad I don’t have to go through all these trauma.
However, though it may sound pampering, it does gave some impact of my life now. I wish I could be more independent. Albeit I had improved a lot.
1) Until now, I can’t find my way back to Sitiawan (my home town). Never tried to drive home alone before.
2) Until now, whenever for some known reasoned I got a car summon, Hubby Panda will be the one to take the hassle to JPJ office to settle for me.
3) Until now, my car release letter is still with bank. Waiting for Hubby Panda to bring me there to collect it..
4) Until now, I can’t settle important government documentation by myself. E.g. Income Tax.
5) Until now, at times I can’t go shopping alone as I might get Panic Attack out of the sudden. Haha.. Fear. Got this fear 3 years ago. Why? dunno.. -_-
6) I use to wait for Hubby Panda to pump my car petrol and tyre air as I don’t know how to do it in my early 2 years of getting my first car. And, yahoo.. I can do it now. rolled eye…
WAIT!!! That’s too much to reveal here… better stop here.
BUT, I am glad that in my working life I had been very independent so far. Ehem.. at least I felt comfortable at my work place.
I really wish that one day I can be more Independent. And eagerly waiting for that day to arrive. Glad for the support given by family and Hubby Panda. Should the day come, I will be celebrating. It will be a day of myself. It will be the day where I can do all things by MYSELF with the guidance of GOD. I am going to make it MY day.
I will declare an Independence Day of Clumsypanda.
And will be proud of it. MERDEKA!!!
But, in the other case, it was a sad scene here. Another 13 days to Malaysia’s Independence Day, there were few flags seen on road and building. No patriotic songs heard.
Unlike those years, cars were filled with flags, too much that it could blocked the drivers view and every where there were a Merdeka Song- “Tanggal 31 Bulan 8, 57.. Merdeka Merdeka..” but now, it seems to be so cold.
Malaysian need to learn to value Independence Day. To know the stories behind our Independent. Then, it will be a memorable event just like me ANTICIPATING for my Independence Day. For those who had forgotten the Real Stories on Independence Day, don’t ask me. Refer back to your buku sejarah. (History Book) lol..
HAPPY 52th Independence Day, Malaysia!!
Waiting to be independent?
Not break up, just give you some space to grow. I’m betting you’ll learn to adapt to life after that. You’ll definitely start relying on yourself 
You just need to push yourself. Or you’ll never change. You’re relying on your “”hubby panda”" too much. He should leave you for a month
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Sia Ling Ling Reply:
August 19th, 2009 at 5:58 pm
Hi Clarisseteagen,
Thanks.. In fact I was trying very hard now.. Like go out alone.. do my own things.. And it was Hubby Panda who encourage me out all the way..Guess like u said, I need to really push myself hard enough.
Haiz.. Wish me best.. haha..
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