Pampering myself with a big big tub of chocolate caramel ice cream. All for me. No sharing sharing here. OK.

 I cannot Tahan already with the work load that need to be done. It was as if the task was queing up in front of me and kept telling me “do me first!!” “do me first!” Sigh!! Stress.. Everything also URGENT!!

What to do? One of my staff resign and the new guy only will join me on 14th April 2008. And, I got another vacancy in my department. So, have to bear it with my another good staff. Pss..pss.. she got a tub of ice cream with her also. Ha ha.

So, I commit myself in this sinful indulgence… eating the ice cream .. half eating.. half working..

And, my boss who saw me.. just shake his head.. and said “this one very fat one” then, I said “don’t care lah”.. “reduce stress”

Finally, I went for the CT Scan yesterday. Hubby Panda fetched me there and accompany me throughout the process.

Well, we arrived at UMSC- University Malaya Specialist Centre at 9:00 a.m after we had our breakfast at Kanna Curry House. Straight away we went to the registration counter and a girl ask us to look for Devi. Sigh!”"” As if the world world know who is Devi?”" LOL!! So, finally, we managed to find who was Devi and she arranged a car for us to go over to University Hospital as the scanning was done there. 

OMG!!! What am I doing here?

We were brought to a very “old place” in the hospital and there waited for my turned. I was then informed that the whole process take about half and hour.

A doctor “Don’t know what is the name” then attended me and told me “Well, I will do injection on you?” Then, I asked him “Is it PAINFUL?”. Then, he said “A little bit”. I was like”huh?. Someone please let me out of these place!!” Finally, I closed my eye and started praying when he poked the needle in my precious hand.

I was told to removed all my metal belonging on my body as the magnetic pull inside the room was much much much stronger than the earth magnetic. Cold sweat. Then, I started to question the doctor. “Is it painful?” “Noisy?” “Scare-lah. How?” “Got relaxation pill for me to eat?” Oh Mind!! I feel like quitting.

Then, out of the sudden I felt like Hubby Panda was…like…err..”UNDESCRIBEABLE”. He asked the doctor whether he can go in to accompany me. Touch!! Very very Touch!! Handkerchief, please!! Meaning that inside the room, only me and Hubby Panda. No nurse, no doctor.

I was make to lie on the machine with  blanket on me and an Emergency “Pump” on my hand. The nurse told me to press the pump should I encountered difficulties. Being so careful, Hubby Panda asked me to press the pump to make sure it was functioning.  

Frankly speaking, tears of fear almost drop from my eye. Shame shame!! I was tooo afraid. Hubby Panda stand beside the machine, touched my leg and told me “Don’t be afraid. Hubby will be beside you only?”

I was then pushed to the tunnel and my heart beat started to go fast. Very very fast. I keep praying to God. And, was about to press the emergency “pump” as I was scared. But, on the other hand, I told myself to be strong. God is with me. Then, I felt Jesus by my side hugging me througout the process. It was wonderful.

Mid time in the process, I could heard Hubby Panda said “Hubby is here?” even I could not see him.

Well, actually, there was no pain at all in the test. Only noise. All the weird and out of the sudden noise that make me felt scared and panic stricken. It was quiet at times and out of the sudden another noise will came out. Sigh!! 

Finally, after half an hour, it was over. At last, I completed my test. I asked Hubby Panda how he feel. And, he just told me “Heart Pain”. Enough! Thanks Hubby Panda.

I got my X-ray ”photo” and then, we headed back to UMSC where I went to see Dr. Goh. Well, he told me “Congratulation! Your brain was normal”.. Yeah!! Thank God. At least I am relieved. And, while the doctor looked through my X-Ray… Hubby Panda asked me “Eh!! Your brain very big mah!! How come sometimes never use your brain one?” **grin grin**

I was then prescribed a medicine from the doctor. And, will have to come back to see him again next month 5 May 2007.

And guess how much all of the above cost? RM1,111.00.

After the “scary” experience, Hubby Panda then decided to bring me to One Utama to shop and watched movie. -The 3 kingdom staring Andy Lau, Maggie Q, Summo Hong…

We walked around and then came across KTZ Restaurant and decided to have our “refreshment” there.

Sago Kiwi

Sago Mango

Don’t know what is that. We did not finished the dish as the taste.. weird. Ha ha..

Well, the movie was .. I would said.. I don’t like. Cause I can’t understand. Maybe I don’t understand the history of the movie.

What is CT Scanning of the Head?

CT scanning—sometimes called CAT scanning—is a noninvasive, painless medical test that helps physicians diagnose and treat medical conditions.

CT imaging uses special x-ray equipment to produce multiple images or pictures of the inside of the body and a computer to join them together in cross-sectional views of the area being studied. The images can then be examined on a computer monitor or printed.

CT scans of internal organs, bone, soft tissue and blood vessels provide greater clarity than conventional x-ray exams.

CT scanning provides more detailed information on head injuries, stroke, brain tumors and other brain diseases than regular radiographs (x-rays).

OK.. you may be wondering why I was blogging all these in my clumsypanda website.

Well, as you know, I  had not been feeling very well for the past days. And, YES. Tomorrow will be the day I have to go through as what mentioned above- CT Scan. The scanning will be done at UMSC- University Malaya Specialist Centre. And the neurologist that will attend me is Dr. Goh.

Of course I am feeling a little bit nervous and scare of the test. But, thank God, Hubby Panda will be with me. What I prayed for is the doctor will allow Hubby Panda to be by my side holding my hand during the scan. But, I don’t know how possible it is. Sob Sob. I need you Hubby Panda..

Anyway, I hope the scan will be a very very fast one.. (maybe less than 5 seconds. Hua ha ha) and, I will walk out of the hospital with Dr. Goh shaking my hand and said “Congratulation! You can go as a “clean” woman” Ha ha. And, if possible give me a cert to prove that I am healthy. .. Think too much, clumsypanda.

Well, something I wanna share here

Letter From Jesus

Dear Friend:

How are you? I just had to send a note to tell you how much I love you and care about you. I saw you yesterday as you were talking with your friends. I waited all day hoping you would want to talk with Me also. As evening drew near, I gave you a sunset to close your day and a cool breeze to rest you – and I waited. You never came. Oh yes, it hurt me – but I still love you because I am your friend. I saw you fall asleep last night and longed to touch your brow, so I spilled moonlight upon your face and pillow. Again, I waited, wanting to rush down so we could talk. I have so many gifts for you! You awakened late and rushed off to work without ever thinking of Me, and I still love you. My tears were in the rain.

Today you looked so sad – so all alone. It makes My heart ache because I understand. My friends let Me down too and hurt Me many times, but I love you. Oh, if you would only listen to Me! I LOVE YOU! I try to tell you in the blue sky and in the quiet green grass. I whisper it in the leaves on the trees and breathe it in the colors of flowers. I shout it to you in the mountain streams and give the birds love songs to sing. I clothe you with warm sunshine and perfume the air with nature scents. My love for you is deeper than the ocean and bigger than the biggest want or need that you will ever have. Oh, if you only knew how much I want to walk and talk with you. We could spend an eternity together in heaven. I know how hard it is on this earth. I really know! And I want to help you. I want you to know my father. He wants to help you too. My father is the way, you know. Just call Me – ask Me – talk with Me! Oh, please don’t forget Me. I have so much to share with you! All right, I won’t bother you any further. You are free to choose or reject Me. It is your decision. I have chosen you and because of this, I will wait – because I LOVE YOU!

Your Friend,

Jesus