Not been updating as frequent as I did last time. Guess my life seems to be a bit boring nowadays.. and I am slowly turning myself into Auntie Category. Today is my 6th (cow)”niu” years in my company. Time flies. I use to go like “awwww” when I heard colleague working in the same company like more than 5 years, thinking why they spend their life in the same company. Aren’t they bored? Don’t they wish to go and see the outside world. But, I never imagine myself being in the same category- 6 years. and still counting.

When i joined this company, turning 24 years old, I told myself that I will retire from this company.. =__= .. fresh grad.young girl. not much of anticipation ok.. I enjoy myself then. Very much. Very much till to the extend I spend longer hour in the office than with BFPanda. I hate weekend. I got headache during weekend. And, it would just went off when I returned to work on Monday. wth.

I travelled all over Peninsular Malaysia and East Malaysia, gave training to the branches colleagues, and was like the top of the world. It was 2004 and 2005. And, I was like.. FREEDOM.. , enjoying my life, the confident, the courages, the self esteem, were all over me. I like to meet new people. I like to do things I like to do. I like to see places which were so different to me. I don’t care what others think. I feel good.

But, of course a lot of downside happened during 2005, sickness and loss of friend where it struck me without any precaution. But, I rather not talk about it.

Fast forward to today. Albeit, I am a little demotivated at times, I still managed to convince myself that this is a company for me. Who don’t wish for comfort, seniority, freedom, familiarisation, comfortable money end of the month, nice collleagues and superior? It’s all the my pocket now. Maybe, i struggled due to high expectation of myself. Agigated, disappointed, when things didnt go the right way. Perfection!! How I hate it.

At times, I do prayed to ask God to give me a way. Resign or Stay Put. And many times, He would answered- STAY PUT. That’s why I am still here today.

Happy 6th Anniversary CLUMSYPANDA

HubbyPanda requested me to change my Blog name to notclumsypanda.

cry.. How can I iron my own hand?!!

So CLUMSY =_=

I can be very romantic at times one lor..

Yesterday when I was alone at home, with TOTALLY nothing to do.. err.. yes lar.. I did bake carrot cake yesterday..

Oh yah.. Talking about carrot cake, it was the first time I bake it. Quite nice lar.. accept not enough carrot.. wth..

Ok.. come back to me being romantic.. Being bored, too early to sleep, I decided to do something to SURPRISE Hubby Panda.. So that when he come back, he will be happy and surprise and know that I love him.. =_____=”

So, out came the coloured paper, scissor, and tape, I started to cut all the universal love Alphabethical-  I LOVE YOU and stick it childishly on the wall above my bed.

I am so romantic one..

I went to sleep after that.

And when Hubby Panda came back around 11 p.m. his expression was like

“oooo.. I love you so much”

OK.. I LIED =____=

YES.. I LIED

His real expression was smile at me, thinking that the whole idea was me, decorating my room, so that I can feel happier when I reach home from work everyday. sweat. cold sweat. HubbyPanda, if I want to decorate my room, I will paint the whole room HOT PINK.. Just that you don’t allow.

And he added-

“Will the tape make the paint drop or not?”

sweat.. real sweat.

i continue to sleep..

Maybe I will just paint the room pink when HubbyPanda not at home next time.. ngek.. ngek.. ngek..

When everyone were busy playing cards, I was busy setting up “Mc Donald franchise” with my niece..

Cause my calculation is 1+1 = 3. That’s why I am not qualify to play card. wth..

Setting up a branch is so easy..

What you need is a big box.. and stick the yellow Big  M (not big bird k) there..

and the menu

and tadah.. McDonald outlet was ready..

and, the lady boss had been playing with the “outlet” as if it was a real business. Morning, afternoon, night= and she still keep playing with it.

And, I had too much McDonald meal nowadays.. =__________=”